Angry...

Why is it that I AM the one that is expected to do EVERYTHING around here!? Just because I stay at home (SAHM), I'm expected to do everything 24hrs/7 days a week. I have to keep the house clean, I have to do the laundry, I have to make all the meals, I have to take the kids to their appointments, I have to do all the errands, I have to make all the phone calls, I have to make sure the kids are clean and well behaved, I have to do the outside chores, while seeming to appear to have it together all at the same time. And if none of this gets done or stays done...who's head is it that it falls on...mine.

Let's not forget the fact that I run a daycare from my HOME. I have anywhere from 4-8 children every day on top of this, but if I sit down for 1 second to catch my breathe or Heaven forbid take time to actually eat a healthy meal, I get nothing but grief for it. Yes, I'm, a mother and I love my job. But I can't do everything. My mother is the 1st one that loves to point out that I'm failing my kids(by not setting a good example), my marriage and my daycare. That my aunt N used to have her house spotless (which she did/does, you couldn't tell she even had pets who shed hair.), homeschooled 3 kids and was/is very active in her church. That when she and her siblings were growing up, that their mom NEVER sat down. So there is no reason for the whining or complaining. There is no excuses not to get it done. Did grandma have a child with special needs to take care or or take to 3 appointments every week? I don't think so.

It makes me so frustrated and mad! I'd just like some understanding. I'm not whining. Would I like to have it be all done, you bet! Am I realizing that I can't do everything...you bet. There are women out there that can, and not only can do it, but do it so well, that it seems flawless...sorry to say I am not one of them. Especially while I'm pregnant and not on my ADHD medication to help keep on track. Lord, help us all, when I'm not focused. lol. It just would be nice to hear someone say: "It's okay, I understand" Instead of judging all the time.

It doesn't help that I managed to keep everything all together this summer, but things were different then now, where the kids are inside all the time, we have school to go to and from, M has lots of appointments to go too, and with my pregnancy I'm exhausted. So sue me if I don't get everything done. I'm trying to make sure that the kids and the daycare kids, don't have someone that is wigging out from stress. lol. Oh yeah! I'm also teaching the daycare kids stuff, instead of plugging them in front of the TV all the time. I know that there are days which it's better then others...but why can't people see those days instead of the not-so perfect days? ;)

SO sorry, vent is done.
God Bless