Preschool

This week Cyril started preschool, and LOVES it!!!  He was so excited this past weekend, every time you turned around he was asking if it was time to go yet.  Even when I was having the kids get ready for Sunday school, he asked.  When Monday morning came, he jumped out of bed, got dressed and was ready to run out the door before anyone else was ready. lol. We made sure his backpack was ready, including a picture he made at Sunday school.  He was so excited to show his teacher Miss S, but then all of a sudden that excitement turned to fear on Cyril's part.  His big beautiful blue eyes sparkled no longer with excitement and happiness but with fear. His eyes had tears in them. He said "Momma don't leave me."

My heart just stopped. It took every once of courage I had to look down at him, and smile.  My heart was secretly breaking that my little boy was old enough to be starting this new adventure, and for the fact he was scared.  I wanted to pick him up, and run back out the door. Thinking no, he's not ready, we'll try this again next year.  But this mommy took a big huge breath, said a prayer, and looked at Cyril.  I gave him a huge hug, and said "you'll have so much fun with Miss S". Thankfully Miss S read the signals right, and got Cyril distracted with searching for circles. 

Then as I left the tears fell from my face. I remember holding Gordon close to my chest to stop the aching that my Cyril was old enough. It felt like yesterday he was as small and helpless as Gordon.  Then again, it's hard to believe that ALL of my babies aren't that small anymore. It feels like they should still be that small.

Later that morning, when it was time to pick him up, it was so easy to see I had made the right decision.  Cyril was lit up like a Christmas tree with excitement.  He couldn't wait to show me his "happy face" which was a circle (the shape they had discussed) and to show me the song they sang.  He also got to be made teacher's helper, which he was very proud of.  Turns out that Jessie had those strong feelings too. He didn't cry, but I bet he would have liked to today.

God Bless