I miss my husband..

I miss my husband very much.  It's tough having him gone all week long, sometimes more then others.  Then again, there have been a few times, I'm glad he's gone for the week.  lol. Which I'm sure there are times that, he's been glad to be gone all week.  I'm not that easy to live with at times. lol. Things have been tough this last week or so with him gone. Due to him working overtime this past weekend, it will be 2 weeks by the time the kids and I see him again.  Over the last couple of days it feels like an eternity away, and makes me wonder how military families do it?

With all the rain, being couped inside, the adjustment to having Gordon here...things have been really tough. The kids have been at it more then normal, and I've ready to pull my hair out. lol. I didn't realize that having 4 kids would be this hard.  I knew it would be tough, but I honestly thought that it would be a little easier having the age differences that we have with our kids. I wish someone had knocked me on the side of the head during my pregnancy. lol.

Dawn has been a HUGE help with Gordon and the 2 daycare kids I had last week. She and Spencer have been a thorn in each other's side come evening time though.  Here I thought with them having activities that would lessen a bit, it has and it hasn't made that much of a difference. I wonder if that makes sense? lol. Cyril is being super naughty last week and this week. I know why, and was prepared for it to come...it's still been really tough, having my sweet boy become this...this...I can't really find the words other then naughty.

Not to mention that Gordon and I are having trouble getting the nursing relationship down.  He's a lazy latcher, and nurser. He falls asleep nursing barely after 10 minutes, doesn't matter if I strip him down to his t-shirt or not. Then he wakes up an hour later to nurse again. Or he'll go 4-5hours between feedings, by then my chest is ready to explode! lol. I think I gave him his nuk to early too, because he likes his nuk, way more then he should. Plus he doesn't want to latch on right either and gets so mad because the let down doesn't come as quickly as he'd like. So needless to say my milk supply has taken a serious hit -which is adding to the stress and frustration - of having a new baby, in addition to 3 children who all need attention. Did I mention I miss my husband? lol.

Do I need to mention the hormones too? lol. I had forgotten about those changes too. This weekend they really hit, and are stilling going strong. I'm crying and laughing at the silliest times, getting cranky at other times.

When Jessie was off those few days after Gordon was born, and when he was home that 1st weekend too, it was a HUGE blessing to not only have him there, but to have that extra helping hand.  I had forgotten the extra work you have when a new baby comes into the household.  I think a great gift for ALL new parents is for time to stand still or give us an extra hour, or two or three...so that we can get everything done that needs to be done.

Only 4 more days till he's home...and I'm counting the hours till he's here. It's Father's Day weekend this coming weekend...the kids and I will need to plan something to show him just how much we miss him and appreciate him.

God Bless ~