Get easier....

This week has really been hard on me. I'm not sure if it's all pregnant hormone related or is it that combined with every day life stresses?

Spencer had a really tough couple of days this week. He was off sensory-wise both Tuesday & Wednesday. It was hell, dealing with things I thought were getting better with him. He was more combative, not wanting to change his socks(the other pairs don't feel right), not wanting to wear 1 of 3 long sleeve shirts, not wanting to change clothes because the others don't feel right. He"s not sleeping well this week, doesn't matter what time he goes to bed he's up and down, or wide awake for several hours. The list goes on and on....ah the life of dealing with a person who has special needs.

Plus I thought I was dealing well with what's happened to uncle Greg. But twice this week, things have happened with the house, that makes me want to call him up and say "Hey, what do you think about this, or is this normal?" Then it hits me all over again, that I can't call him to ask. I miss him so much. It's not like he dead, but in a way he is because the uncle I grew up with is gone...does this ever get any easier? Does the pain of them not bein there or being who they once were get any easier? GOD I hope. Because this hurts and it really sucks.

The list could with other examples of what's been going on. But it's time to go to MOPS. It's time to get some mommy "cup" replenished.

God Bless