Monday, May 24, 2010

I wonder

Spencer has been having a really rough time this month as far as sensory things go. Even though he has the injuries that he has, it's easy to forget about them at times, and think of him as a normal 10 year old boy. But this morning, as a lot of mornings recently have gone, I'm reminded so clearly that he is not. He thank goodness has stopped fighting about his new shoes. It only took a week this time...they are a little bigger then I would prefer, but at least they aren't a size and half bigger like he wanted. I think last time, it was over a month before he finally stopped....which I predict will happen again this fall. Wish I could just keep him in tennis shoes all summer, would that prevent that battle from occurring? We are on week 2 of battles with the socks. Sigh. SOCKS!!! Who knew that these little buggers  along with clothes would become my enemy every darn morning? He thankfully didn't fight me about wearing shorts this morning, but he did try to sneak out of the house without wearing socks.  He cries every morning because they "don't feel" right.  How to you argue with or justify to a child that they are just fine?  With his shoe size he's right in the middle of them, so I know they fit just fine. The problem is he likes to wear them (if you aren't paying attention) till he stretches them out sloppy big and then to him the "feel right". Sigh. To a parent that has never had a child with sensory issues or a brain trauma...I can see you all. Just tell him to "suck it up", deal with and etc.  Trust me there have been times, we've done that, but it's more then that, trying thinking of something you absolutely hate to do or wear because the sound bothers you, the taste is disgusts you/makes you gag, the clothes bother you because of the texture and etc.  Everyone has something in 1 of the 5 senses that bothers the hec out of them. They avoid it like a plague.  NOW  - take that feeling and apply it across the board in all 5 senses.  You know have an small idea what my son and every other child with sensory issues goes thru. And even though we learn to avoid those things, sometimes we can't, but we are able to work thru it. These children are not able to. Hence the daily battles. I just pray that we can find a happy medium. As I spend time with my Uncle Greg, or listen to what's going on with him...I wonder if this is where my son will be?

And I wonder if it will every get any easier for us as a family, and for him as a person to deal with his injuries.  We've had a lot of stress at our house this past month, due to various circumstances, some of them have been within our control and others are annoyingly not within our control. Some of them have taken the focus off my children for brief periods of time, and I think Spencer has been picking up on those things as well, maybe that's why things have gotten worse lately with his behavior and with his sensory issues. Or at least a contributing factor. This summer will be very interesting for the older two, hopefully the various activities that I have planned will help some what, and I have to honestly now consider the possibility of eventually having to homeschool at least Spencer.

He's coming to that age where he realizes that he is different, and knows that there really isn't anything that he can do to change it.  And that hurts so much, as his mother. I would love for my little boy to stay in the world where he doesn't notice his differences, and he doesn't realize that others are not like that...but it's not the case anymore, and last night, he wanted to know what he did wrong to be this way. It broke my heart, I tried to explain he didn't do anything wrong. After our conversation, all I could do when I went to bed last night, is cry for my son.  He's being picked on at school, and will not tell me by whom.  How can I protect my son from this hurt along with the other hurts in life?  As a mother, my protective instincts come out big time, how could they not?  But I know that as he gets older, I must let him deal with these, and be there in the wings for him.

God Bless...

Saturday, May 22, 2010

39 weeks...

Today is the 39 week mark. The last couple of weeks have been busy as far as the every day family life goes, but as far as baby news goes...nothing. sigh. lol. We had a great visit with my uncle Greg last weekend. He came up with my Aunt Nancy and Uncle Steve. It was the 1st time in 8 mos that I've seen him.  He looked really good, but sounded different at times.  It was strange to see my uncle but at times to listen to him and know that he was a different Greg.  I can't wait to see him again though...hopefully in the next couple of weeks.

Dawn has had an exciting week this week as far as school goes. The entire school got to go Valleyfair for a day this past week.  I thought it was just her grade, but it was the entire school had the option.  She had so much fun.  It was great to see the sparkle in her eyes from having so much fun.  She decided to be in Marching Band this summer. So it will be interesting how that goes, I think she'll have a blast. I remember how much fun it was.  She also this week go word that she is going to be a WEB leader next year.  It's a special mentor type position for the 7th & 8th graders to be for the new students and for the incoming 6th graders. It's really cool. Out of 600+ students in her grade, over 300+ students applied to be one, and it was narrowed down to less then 20 students I believe. So it's really cool that she got selected.

As far as progress goes in regards to the pregnancy...it's coming. Slowly.  I swear I think that Peanut is a girl, since things are progressing so slowly. My due date is officially 7 days away counting today.  And after seeing Dr. B on Thursday - we have a game plan.  If peanut doesn't show by next weekend, we talked about an induction date of either the 1st or 2nd week of June.  So either way by June 12th (I'll be 42weeks along) we will have a new addition to the family.  To be honest the last couple of weeks have been tough.  I feel like I'm having hot flashes all the time, I'm nauseated, feel like a beached whale and the list goes on.  I am having contractions, but they aren't regular...not the Braxton Hicks contractions.  I've made some progressive changes down there since I was in the hospital a couple of weeks ago, but it's been disappointing at the pace.  When I start Dr. B on Thursday, I know have permission to do stuff naturally to encourage labor.  But like he said, if labor isn't ready to start it won't go.  He even tried stripping my membranes on Thursday.  Oh lordy! Was that uncomfortable. No I didn't think it was going to be pleasant, but I did not expect it to hurt either. But as you can tell, it didn't work.

I've been drinking my red raspberry leaf tea almost every day, and squatting when the contractions do hit and get strong, so we'll see if that will work. I'm going to try a few other things this coming week to see if things will start. Ever since Thursday though, things are getting more and more uncomfortable. It would be great to hear at this coming week's appointment that I'm a 4 or 5cm instead of just 3cm. Next week would be a great time for this peanut to show, because my 3 main daycare kids are gone for the week. But as we all know the peanut will arrive on God's time, not mine.

God Bless

Saturday, May 8, 2010

37 weeks



We have now reached the official "full-term" marker today. Yay!  So truly now baby can come any day, since everything is now considered ready.  Up until this week I was feeling really good, especially considering this is baby no. 4. Sure I had moments where I was exhausted, but then again what woman wouldn't be running after daycare children and her own all week long?  Even though I had horrible morning sickness with this one, we had the H1N1 go thru our house, it's been a fairly smooth sailing pregnancy. I don't even really count that scare I had a couple of weeks ago. Compared to the complications that I had with the boys, this has been great, similar to what I had when I was pregnant with Dawn, including the emotional stressors I have had this pregnancy. Drama is all I say on that one.

This week though, things are progressing some more.  I had my 36 week check up this week with Dr. B.  He is so charming and makes me laugh. This time Dawn got to go with and hear the baby's heartbeat. She has yet to be able to go to an appointment with me during this pregnancy because of school. So it was fun watching her expression when she heard  Peanut's heartbeat. She said all in the same breathe "That's so cool, but it's really weird." lol.  Dr. B told us some funny stories about what his 5 boys did growing up. So it was a good 1st visit for Dawn to be there with. Everything is going good. Blood pressure was actually low considering the stressors that I've been under lately. 104/58. I think that's one of the lowest I've ever had. My weight went up, but I was retaining a lot of water this week, and it didn't help that I ate some potato chips either the night before the appointment.  Peanut's heartbeat was in the high 140's. I told Dr. B about some of the changes that I've been experiencing and he said it makes sense that I would be feeling them, since this is baby 4.  He nor I felt like I needed to be checked, that will happen next week.

Fast forward to yesterday afternoon. We started to get a tad bit excited yesterday.  I saw some physical changes, along with getting some contractions about 30-40 minutes apart.  They were consistent and I continued to feel like I've gone horseback riding without the benefit of a horse. (I've felt like that all week-not to mention but it feels like the baby is dropping.)They never got really uncomfortable, but enough for me to stop and take notice of the time.  And later last night when the back labor contractions kicked in, they did get stronger, where I needed to breathe thru them.  They got down to about 4minutes apart. I know that some of you are thinking why didn't you go up?  A lot of the physical signs weren't quite there yet, nor did the pain, I got from the contractions warrant a trip up to Labor and Delivery (L & D). I'm glad i didn't go, because at 5am this morning, they stopped till about 8am. Now I'm having constant back "ache", and the contractions are anywhere from 5-20minutes apart. They are quite a bit stronger, but again nothing that I'm going to up for L & D for yet.  It could stay like this till way past my due date, or we could be blessed with Peanut's arrival tomorrow.

It's all in God's hands. He knows Peanut's birthday, and the plan. Would be nice if He shared it with me. ;) So we'll take it semi-easy this weekend. Even though I've got the itch to get this house spotless from top to bottom, I need to work on Peanut's baby blanket, I'm close but not close enough to finish it. I wanted Peanut to come home with it. So hopefully the kids and Jessie will be on board to helping get the house ready. We also need to finalize plans for the kids' childcare/sleeping arrangements for once I go up to L & D. Somethings came up this morning, that don't make me comfortable with the arrangements we once had.

God Bless

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

36 weeks...

Well it's official, we are now at 9 month marker as of this past Saturday.  According to the count down calendar,  we have 24 days till due date, not counting today.  Spencer this weekend wanted to know when the baby was coming. When we told him anytime now, he's wanted a specific day.  Wouldn't we ALL like to know the day Peanut is going to make his/her arrival? lol. But where's the fun in that?

Things are slowly changing in my body, as it gets ready for the pending birth.I've noticed since late last week, a few changes. It will be interesting to see if there's been any physical changes  at my 37week appointment. I think things have changed slightly that way.  Nothing to get all excited about because these changes can take up the next 4 weeks, or cause me to go at the end of the week. :)  Some friends and family have started picking dates on when this peanut will make it's debut, but we'll see, who's the closest.

Jessie talked to the kids about helping a little more till after the baby is born, but we'll keep them helping with those few chores long after the baby is born. We don't see any reason why they have to stop doing chores just because the baby has arrived. It's not a whole hec of a lot of chores either, even though to the kids they are dying. lol.  I'm glad that he talked to them about it, because I'm not sleeping well at night for a variety of reasons, my body is making me slow down, it's been interesting having to squat and bend to pick up stuff. I swear there's been a few times I wasn't sure I was going to get back up. lol.  It's hard to get things done like the dishes, because the bump is getting into the way. Dawn is poking fun at me, but she's got questions too. So it's been an interesting journey for mother & daughter I think.

This past weekend, Dawn & I went scrapbooking for the day on Saturday, and when we came back Jessie surprised me with rearranging our bedroom and getting the crib set up in our room.  I've got all of Peanut's clothes washed and waiting. So between those two things, it feels like it's time. I'm getting really excited about the arrival now. I just want it to hurry up and get here, but on the one hand, I'll willing for it to wait till it's ready...for now.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

30 days to go

It's hard to believe that I'm now 1 month from my due date. Jeez! It's flown by so fast. I will have to admit regardless of if this baby is a girl or a boy, it was by far the best pregnancy I've had - as far as a smooth sailing, stereotypical pregnancy. We had the one hiccup, but that was nothing compared to the others. I feel great and have for the most part keep the weight gain under control, I think mainly due to my gluten allergy. (Should I thank that too? lol.)

I am 35wks, 5 days, and had a doctor's appointment today. I had to have the strep B test done, but I'm sure that will be fine. I'm happy to report no "exams" till 37 weeks. I HATE those, then again I don't know any WOMAN who does. Considering the scare and stress I got yesterday(after I've talked to my attorney about some things I will post the WHOLE story.), my blood pressure was relatively normal: 116/68. Cyril loved listening to his "baby's" heartbeat. This time he told Dr. B and I that it sounded like rain. Spencer said one time that it sounds like someone is running. lol. Heartbeat was in the 150's and Peanut was moving, just wish it would stop doing that at the same time as a Braxton Hick contraction. Ouch!

I think the best part of the entire appointment was that I have lost 9lbs since last week. One can hope that the water weight has settled down and will stay that way till the end. I've been so annoyed this last month and a half because I gained 12lbs, no real reason behind it expect water weight. I was hoping that it was all baby, but then again I don't WANT to give birth to a baby that large. 9lb babies are big enough, thank you very much. lol.

I'm getting excited now, and can't wait to meet Peanut. Hope I didn't jinx anything by picking up a couple of girl clothes at some garage sales today. Fingers are crossed. ;)

God Bless

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Gluten Free Challenge #7

TIP #7 Natural Healing: Spice up your diet with anti-inflammatory herbs and spices like ginger and turmeric.


RECIPE #7


April 28, 2010



This savory and sweet sandwich is a wonderfully satisfying delight. It's also very easy to make - ENJOY!

Easy Monte Cristo Sandwiches

2 cups Pamela's Baking & Pancake Mix
1/2 cup butter
2/3 cup plus 2 Tablespoon milk
2 cups shredded mozzarella cheese
12 slices gluten-free thinly sliced ham
12 slices gluten-free thinly slice turkey
2/3 cup strawberry fruit spread
powdered sugar for sprinkling on top

Yield: 6 servings

Heat oven to 375º.

Lightly grease an 8-inch x 8-inch square baking dish. Mix the Pamela's Baking & Pancake Mix and the butter with a fork until the mixture resembles coarse crumbs, add the milk, and stir with a fork. Put half the mixture in the bottom of your baking pan, then sprinkle on 1 cup mozzarella, 1/2 of the thinly sliced ham, then 1/2 of the thinly sliced turkey. Spread strawberry fruit spread on top spreading to within 1/2 inch of the edge, then layer the last half of the ham, then the last half of the turkey, then sprinkle on 1 cup mozzarella. Spread the rest of the baking mix on top, and bake for 30 minutes. When nicely browned remove from the oven and sprinkle with powdered sugar. Allow to sit for 5 to 10 minutes before cutting and serving. Cut into wedges and enjoy.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free.

Gluten Free Challenge #6

TIP #6 Save Money: Soak, and then cook, your own dried beans in a slow-cooker. Dried beans are cheap, nutritious and gluten-free. Make a lot and freeze in small bags so cooked beans are always handy to throw in a chili or stew. They forgot to mention for soups too. This is what we have been doing, and I can attest that it not only saves money, but you can add your OWN seasonings and spices. You can rest assured that it won't be contaminated by "their" seasonings & spices.

RECIPE #6

April 27, 2010

This is a much easier recie than it looks, don't let the length of this recipe fool you. Everyone will love this tasty empanada with chipotle cream sauce. This is another recipe that can be personalized. Try filling the dough with any of your favorite pie treats, such as other meat and vegetable mixtures, fruits with sugar and cinnamon. Be creative and enjoy!

Cajun Spiced Empanadas with Chipotle Cream Sauce

Dough:
1 bag (3-1/2 cups) Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix
2 sticks unsalted butter, chilled
1/2 cup ice water
1/2 cup Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix for rolling
1 egg, beaten for forming the empanadas

Filling:
1-1/2 tbsp olive oil
1 small yellow onion, small diced
2 Anaheim peppers, seeded and small diced
1 Jalapeño, seeded and small diced
4 cloves garlic, finely chopped
1 lb. extra-lean ground beef
2 Tablespoons Cajun seasoning, preferably without salt
1 Tablespoon ancho chili powder
1/8 teaspoon fresh ground black pepper
1/3 cup cilantro, coarsely chopped
1/2 teaspoon ground cloves
1/4 cup golden raisins
juice of 1/2 lime

Chipotle Cream Sauce:
1/2 cup light sour cream
2 chipotles in adobe sauce
1 Tablespoon Agave syrup (honey or sugar may be substituted)

Yield: Makes approximately 12-14 Empanadas

Empanada Dough Instructions: Cut up both chilled butter sticks into small squares and add to Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix. Using either your fingers or a pastry cutter blend the butter into the flour mixture until it resembles coarse pea-sized crumbles, careful not to over blend so that the butter does not melt too much. Slowly add the ice water 1 tablespoon at a time using a fork to blend with the dough. When the dough just begins to come together use your hands to bring it together. The dough should not be too sticky or so dry it is falling apart.

Shape into a ball and wrap in plastic wrap. Set in fridge at least 1 hour or until ready to use. Dough can be frozen overnight and taken out and thawed the next day at room temperature or in fridge.

Filling Instructions: Heat olive oil over medium heat. Add onions and sauté until translucent, approximately 5 minutes. Add peppers and sauté 5 minutes, or until they begin to soften. Add garlic and sauté 2 min. Turn heat to medium-high. Add beef and coarsely crumble into mixture until well-incorporated and pea-sized. Add the rest of ingredients and sauté until all the juice has evaporated from pan. Take mixture off stove and allow to cool to room temperature (note: the beef mixture can be made a day ahead of time and held in the fridge until ready for use).

Making the Empanadas: Pre-heat oven to 375º. Roll out a long sheet of wax or parchment paper and dust lightly with Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix. Set dough on sheet and press down with hands to form an even round, then dust top with additional mix. Place another sheet of wax or parchment paper over and roll dough out until approximately 3/4-inch thick. Using a 4-inch round pastry cutter, or anything approximately that big in your kitchen, cut out circles. Place another, smaller piece of parchment down and dust with mix then set one circle down, dust top and roll out to 1/4 to 1/2-inch thickness. They will be approximately 6-inches in diameter.

Put two heaping spoonfuls of the beef mixture in the center of the dough. Using either a pastry brush or your fingers brush a small amount of the beaten egg all along the edges of the dough. Gently fold the dough over and match the ends together lightly pressing down to seal any open spaces. Press a fork all along the edge of the empanada and placed finished pastry on a well-greased cookie sheet. Repeat the above instructions for the rest of the empanadas. Dough can be pulled back together and rolled back out to yield more.

Brush the tops of each empanada with the egg mixture and place in oven. Cook 17-20 minutes or until dough is lightly browned, edges will be slightly more browned. Take out and serve with a dab of Chipotle Creme Sauce for dipping.

Chipotle Cream Sauce Instructions: Blend all ingredients in a blender at high speed until fully blended. Sauce can be chilled in fridge until ready for use; also makes a great dip for chips and vegetables.

Chef's Notes: If you have only one bag of Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix you can substitute Pamela's Baking & Pancake Mix for the rolling and forming of the empanadas. You can also make the filling spicier by leaving some of the seeds of the peppers, but be warned - the sauce is pretty spicy! Or, for less spice, cut the spices, this is true for both the sauce and the filling.

The filling is entirely up to you! I love this filling because the raisins balance out the heat of the peppers and seasoning, but feel free to use turkey, pork, lamb, or even just sautéed vegetables! It can also be made vegan by simply substituting shortening for the butter and making an all vegetable filling.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free.

Good Samaritans left?

After see that horrible article about the NYC Good Samaritan dieing after being stabbed helping a stranger. It broke my heart and made me so mad! What has happened to all the Good Samaritans out there? Do people not remember what GOD has taught us about being the Good Samaritan? Gospel of Luke, chapter 10, verses 25-37, are they that selfish or are they afraid?

It seems that maybe it's a little bit of both. Afraid for the legal consequences for helping someone. Last year or a couple of years ago out in California, a man was sued by a friend/co-worker, after they were involved in an car accident. She became paralyzed and sued him...saying he should have waited till help arrived. He said he feared that the car was going to catch fire and feared for her safety. I was shocked to learn that she won her lawsuit. My heart goes out to her, for the life changes, but what if the car had caught on fire - and she suffered 3rd degree burns all over her body. I think she would have sued him for NOT removing her from the car. Maybe she is that type of person. This is just one of many that I have heard thru the years...there is a law that is supposed to protect the Good Samaritan...but it doesn't always seem to work. Also people have been hurt or killed being the Good Samaritan because of the evil & greed of others. SO I can see the fear...but how do you explain selfishness?

How am I supposed to teach my children and my daycare children about being Good Samaritans when we are all greeted with these kinds of people? Today though...was different. This morning gave me hope that there are still good people out there like me, who try to be or are the Good Samaritans.

I was having to run to Spencer's school, and on my way I saw a garage almost completely engulfed in flames. We pass this house every day going to and from school. I've seen the little old lady that lives there. She was the 1st thought I had. Is she okay? Does she know that her garage is on fire? And then I saw them. At 1st 3 men all surrounding her, comforting her, assisting her away from the garage and her home...to safety. Then I saw others, on their phones, calling 911. Then shortly before I pulled away, another comfort filled me as I said a prayer for these people, a police officer rushing to the scene. Here today in our small town, in Minnesota...GOD showed me that there are indeed people who are willing to still be the Good Samaritans, regardless of their safety.

GOD bless

Monday, April 26, 2010

Gluten Free Challenge #5

TIP #5 Quick Snack Idea: Keep a bowl of fresh fruit on the counter where it’s visible and always handy to grab one for a nutritious snack. Fruit is always gluten-free and munching on fresh fruits is one of the most healthful ways to snack. If you like dried fruit, buy your own dehydrator. Then you can have safe, delicious dried fruit anytime!


RECIPE #5

April 26, 2010



This is such a great recipe because it's very simple and easy to make, but it's also full of great healthful corn and berries. The texture is delightful and they're hearty and delicious!
Blueberry Corn Pancakes

1-1/2 cups Pamela's Baking & Pancake Mix
1/2 cups Pamela's Cornbread & Muffin Mix
2 eggs
1 TBSP oil
3/4 cup soy milk (substitute with regular milk or water)
dash of salt
basket of berries
optional: 1 ear of cooked corn cut off the cob (or 1 cup frozen)

Mix dry ingredients. Mix liquid ingredients and add to dry mixture. Pour 1/4 cup batter onto the pan, (sprinkle corn kernels into batter if using), then sprinkle blueberries onto baking pancakes. Flip when browned on the first side. Serve with blueberry or maple syrup.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free.

Gluten Free Challenge #4

TIP #4 Snack Idea: Popcorn is a filling, gluten-free snack that provides 3.5g fiber per 3 cups of popped kernels. Sprinkle nutritional yeast (Red Star brand is gluten-free) on top for a unique flavor full of nutrients. We love having popcorn here, even the daycare kids love it as a snack, with some string cheese on the side for more protein. Sometimes I add fresh fruit too.


RECIPE #4


April 25, 2010



Try filling these simple and elegant dumplings with all kinds of delicious treats, vegetables, cheese, meat. You could even include some fresh fruit with sugar and cinnamon for a sweet treat. Test your imagination on this one.


Steamed Pork Dumplings

1 bag (3-1/2 cups) Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix including yeast packet
1/4 cup oil
1-1/4 cups warm water
1 pound ground pork
1 TBSP corn starch
2 TBSP soy sauce (be sure it's gluten-free, tamari sauce works well)
6 green onions, chopped
1 to 2 teaspoons red pepper flakes (to taste)

Yield: 24 dumplings Combine

Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix, yeast packet, oil and water (reserve a couple of tablespoons of mix for dusting dough later). Mix well to form dough. Let rise 60 minutes.

On plastic wrap sprinkle reserved mix and roll out dough to ¼-inch thick. Cut dough into 4-inch x 4-inch squares.

Mix pork with corn starch, soy sauce, green onions and red pepper. Place 1 to 2 tablespoons in the center of each square and fold dough over the top of the meat mixture. Place into lightly oiled steamer and steam 20 minutes. Cook in batches until all dumplings are ready to serve.

Serve with soy sauce or your favorite dipping sauce.

Chef's Notes: I used wax paper instead of plastic wrap and I used quite a lot of the Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix for rolling out the wrappers (an extra bag of Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix for dusting and rolling dough is handy to have on hand, or look for the new 4LB bag of Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix).

Have fun with different sizes and shapes. Try circles for a pot sticker effect, and even a wavy biscuit cutter for the traditional open top Chinese pork dumpling. When I steamed the dumplings in a traditional Chinese steamer over a wok, I kept a tea pot of water steaming to replenish the steam in the wok as it dissipated.

For a real wallop try adding garlic and/or ginger to the filling.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Maternity Photoshoot #2




I met a great photographer,thru SimplyTC Photography, who agreed to take some maternity photos of me. Why do you ask, since I just had some done. I finally got up the courage to get some of me done both semi-nude or completely nude during this pregnancy. I am so glad that I did too. He didn't do anything crass, they are very sensual and amazing. I can't believe when I look at the proofs that these pregnant ladies in these pictures are me! This is one of the final pictures. He is a very gifted and talented photographer. I've seen other pieces of his work, and it still amazes me, that he was able to take beautiful pictures of me. I felt like a beautiful expectant mother, it was a moment that I was trying to have captured the last time in the other photoshoot. She was able to get it with the pictures with my kids and I...but not when it was just me...I'm not sure why. But I'm glad I went with my gut instinct on this and had Michael do them.

Some people will be put off by them I think because of the semi-nudity, but others won't. I did them mainly for me. Something that I can look back on and not only see the beauty in these pictures. But be reminded of the beauty and the power of GOD. I say that, because there is just something special about seeing an expectant mother. Knowing that GOD did that, HE gave us the ability to not only create life, but nurture that growing child with our bodies. Expectant mothers, seem to have this inner beauty that glows thru them....I don't know about other expectant mommies, but I have a hard time seeing that in me when I'm expecting. But I never seem to have that problem seeing it in other expectant mommies.


God Bless

Saturday, April 24, 2010

35 weeks


I'm 35 weeks today. I looked on the calendar and it's hard to believe that we are a little over 30 days away from meeting this little peanut. Judging from activity this morning, Peanut is running out of room in there fast. It felt like Peanut was trying to get out, with how active it was moving. Jessie couldn't get over all the movement. I have to admit this morning that there were more then a few of them that really hurt. Hopefully Peanut will be a little kinder to momma in the next couple of weeks.

Dawn loves feeling Peanut move, she keeps trying to figure out what each bump is. lol. She's been a stinker though too. She loves to tell me, that my belly looks like I swallowed a basketball, &/or my butt is big like when I was pregnant with Cyril. Spencer is freaked out by Peanut moving. He says my stomach looks like an alien in there. lol. Dawn & Cyril came to cuddled with me and "his" baby this morning. Cyril has become fascinated with my chest lately. He knows what they are for. He tells me all the time, that's "baby milk" This morning though was strange. He kept peaking at them, saying "Boobs for baby. Not for me. I'm a big boy." or "Nooo boobs for me." The 2nd comment reminded me of the line for the Seinfeld show "No soup for you." I hope this fascination will take a back seat after the baby is born. I would be embarrassed if he tries to do this "game" in front of someone other then family. He also kept kissing and hugging my belly, it was really cute. He told me that he was giving them to his baby butter. I asked him what will he do if it's a sister not a brother? He told me he hated girls. :( I know that's not entirely true since he loves his big sister. But I have to admit secretly there's a part of me that wonders how he will react if this baby is a girl not a boy.

Last week and earlier this week I was excited that my belly was finally getting at a point where my pants will stay up without the help of a belly band. Today though is proving that I'm still not quite there yet. I keep having to hike them up. lol. I don't remember having with the boys...it's kind of a nice feeling at this stage in pregnancy. But I'm starting not to be very comfortable in jeans, so I've been thinking of getting some maternity sweatpants/lounge pants and see if I'm more comfortable that way.

Jessie and I have NOT figured out names yet for either gender. We have the middle names figured out...or should I say I have them figured it out. If it's a girl then she will have his mother's middle name, just like Dawn has my mom's middle name. If it's a boy the middle name will either be after his father or my uncle. It would be really cool if the baby is a boy to have both of these men's names since they are 2 out of 3 most important men in Jessie's & my life. Guess we better get to figuring out a name. Cyril didn't have his name till I was about this far along in my pregnancy with him, and he was born 2 weeks later. I made a comment that I packed the baby book of names in my hospital bag just in case. Jessie looked slightly annoyed. lol.

God Bless

Gluten Free Challenge #3

TIP #3 Substitution Tip: Instead of traditional spaghetti noodles, use cooked spaghetti squash strands and pasta sauce for a nutritious, gluten-free, pasta-like meal. This came from the GIG group. What we do here at the Johnson household for spaghetti sauce, is we use GF tomato sauce, and season it with GF seasonings, till we like it. I also add sometimes GF diced tomatos, fresh cloves of garlic and onion too.


RECIPE #3

April 24, 2010



Everyone loves pizza, even those who don't eat cheese. Try baking the crust with a cheese-free pesto topping, olives and anchovies (if you like those strong flavors), or capers, olive oil and green olives. We also suggest making a double batch of pizza crust, par bake them all and then freeze the crusts you don't use right then. Later in the month when you need dinner in a hurry, simply pull the par-baked crust from your freezer and you'll have a delicious pizza in just a few minutes.



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Crunchy Pizza Crust

1 bag (3-1/2 cups) Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix
1 yeast packet (enclosed in mix)
1/4 cup oil
1-1/2 cups warm water
Optional: Add 2 tsp Italian herbs &/or 1/2 cup grated cheese to dough
Optional: Add 2 tsp fresh rosemary to dough

Dough makes two - 12 to 14-inch crusts, or 3 to 4 smaller personal sized crusts.

Combine Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix, yeast packet, oil and water (no eggs are used). With a Heavy Duty Stand Mixer mix on medium for 2 minutes. Cut dough into two or three portions (based on your desired pizza size). Spread one portion of dough per pizza onto parchment paper (do not use wax paper). Use oil or non-stick spray on dough and fingers to keep fingers from sticking when spreading dough into pizza shape. Let rise 60 to 90 minutes. With a pizza stone in the oven preheat oven to 375º. For a thinner crust, spread dough thinner again, after it has rested for the 60 to 90 minutes. Bake without sauce on the parchment paper on hot pizza stone for 15 to 20 minutes until pizza is lightly browned. If a pizza stone is not available you could use a cookie sheet under the parchment paper.

Pull lightly browned crust from the oven and dress with sauce and toppings. Return to oven and bake on stone until toppings hot, approximately 5 minutes. OR remove crust from oven after initial baking, let cool, wrap and freeze or refrigerate for later use.

To bake frozen or refrigerated par-baked crust: remove from freezer or refrigerator. Let thaw if frozen, or warm to room temperature. Dress with sauce and topping, With a pizza stone in the oven preheat oven to 375º, then bake on hot pizza stone until toppings are hot, approximately 5 minutes.

Pizza Ideas:
#1. Ready-made pasta sauces make a quick pizza sauce and come in a variety of flavor combinations.
#2. Try adding seasonings or cheese to the dough for interesting flavors.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free.

Gluten Free Challenge #2

Here is the 2nd day's tip & recipe:

TIP #2 Snack Idea: Make your own vegetable "chips" by tearing kale into small pieces or thinly slicing vegetables such as beets, sweet potatoes, rutabagas, parsnips or carrots. Bake at a low temperature (about 200°F) until crispy. Sprinkle with sea salt and enjoy!


RECIPE #2
But don't stop with these rolls. You can add homemade or store bought pesto to just about any rolls or bread for a delicious twist. Be creative, add pesto to eggs, toss over fried potatoes, spread it on your gluten-free sandwich bread and then fill with sliced meat or cream cheese.




Tuscan Style Pesto and Pine Nut Rolls

1 bag (3-1/2 cups) Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix including yeast packet
1/4 cup oil
2 large eggs
Water (to equal a total of 2 cups when combined with oil and eggs)
1 cup either freshly prepared or purchased pesto sauce
1/4 cup pine nuts, chopped
2 TBSP unsalted butter to grease muffin tins

Yield: approximately 20 rolls

Heat oven to 350°.

Prepare Pamela's Gluten-Free Bread Mix according to instructions for Oven Baking preparation. Stir in pesto sauce and pine nuts and mix well.

Grease cups of muffin tins with butter. Divide mixture equally into muffin tins, filling each muffin cup 1/2 full. Let rise for 1 hour. Bake for 20 to 25 minutes or until toothpick inserted in center of roll comes out clean and rolls are lightly golden brown.

Chef's Notes: These were very easy and had a very light texture. I liked leaving the pine nuts whole rather than chopped as called for in the recipe, reserving some to sprinkle on top of the rolls before baking (and prevent the plastic wrap from sticking).

For the tallest, lightest rolls, let the dough raise in a bowl for 60 minutes and then form the rolls. One method, by using water on hands, lightly form small balls no larger than what fits below the top of the muffin pan. Another method is to scoop the dough into the pan and then smooth the top with a wet rubber spatula, again no higher than the pan top. Sprinkle the tops with the reserved pine nuts and use plastic wrap to let them raise again for 60 minutes before baking.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free. There are LOTS of hidden/sneaky words that used instead.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Gluten Free Challenge...

Several of you dear ones have voiced the need to go Gluten free, or would like to add more of these recipes to your daily diet, but feel it's too hard. There is a GF challenge coming up next month. I guess apparently the month of May is GF month. There is a challenge for people &/or their families to go GF for an entire weekend (May 22d & 23rd). There is a blog & a fan page on Facebook(FB) that will give you daily tips for a period of a month, (April 22 thru May 21) and including recipes that you can do, to help make this transition easier. I will try to remember to post those here for you as well, and post our family reviews of the recipes. It's really not as hard as you all think. There are times that it's tough like the baked goods and that. But now knowing how good I feel, I don't want to go back. Here's tip #1

Tip #1: Try Something New: Quinoa is a high protein, gluten-free quick cooking seed. Add a teaspoon of butter and a sprinkle of cinnamon to a bowl of cooked quinoa for a nutritious, gluten-free breakfast. Personally I LOVE Quinoa noodles. They are very good.

Recipe #1:One Ingredient Cake

1 bag of Pamela's Chocolate Cake Mix
1 cup mayonnaise
1-1/2 cups water

Preheat oven to 350º. Mix all ingredients together. Pour into two lightly greased 8-inch round pans. Bake in preheated oven for 25 to 30 minutes, may need additional baking time. Cake is done when a toothpick comes out with slight crumbs. For single layer sheet cake, use a 9 x 12-inch pan and bake for 25 minutes. For cupcakes, fill lightly greased cupcake pan (or use cupcake papers) with batter 2/3 full. Bake for 22 to 24 minutes. Frost with your favorite frosting.

Dark Chocolate Frosting

1 bag of Pamela's Dark Chocolate Frosting Mix
6 tablespoons butter or margarine, room temp/not melted
4 tablespoons water

Yield: 1-3/4 cups frosting for 1 cake.

Soften butter or margarine on medium speed. Add water and Pamela's Dark Chocolate Frosting Mix and blend together on medium for 1 to 2 minutes or until smooth. Scrap down bowl during mixing. If frosting is too thick, add more water one teaspoon at a time. Frost on cooled cake or cupcakes. Suggestion: Add decorative toppings* or chopped nuts.

Variations:
Mocha Frosting: Add 1 tablespoon freeze-dried coffee (dry form).
Chocolate Orange Frosting: Add 1 teaspoon orange flavoring* and 2 tablespoons orange zest.
Chocolate Raspberry Frosting: Add 1 teaspoon raspberry flavoring* or more to taste. Decorate with fresh raspberries.
Chocolate & Cinnamon Frosting: Add 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon or more to taste.

*Consumers concerned about gluten should check that all flavorings and additional ingredients added to recipes are gluten-free.



God Bless

Thursday, April 22, 2010

MOPS-Mommy guilt talk

Today was MOPS meeting day. Yay!!! I look forward to those meetings all month. What's MOPS? Mothers of Preschoolers...it's for all moms with children 0-5 (pregnant moms too). It's a Christian based mother's group. We meet twice a month and the fellowship you get from the other moms, really fills your cup. Or at least I think so. It's hard to believe this year is coming to an end soon. I'm really glad that I was able to go today. I knew from our retreat this summer that the topic today was an important one for mommies everywhere, but as one of my closest, dearest friends and Coordinator for our group said, we were given several good "signs" that this talk was meant to happen, it's something that all moms whether we are Christian or not need to remember. It's been talked about for years, but somehow moms, including myself don't listen to that advice. And as we all know - when there is something God wants us to hear...HE keeps at us until we hear the message loud and clear.

This was from MOPS international email by Ann Goade:
" As a mom I spend a lot of time focused on growth. I monitor my kids' weight and height. I study charts to check their mental and emotional growth. I take them to church and teach them Bible songs & stories to start them on the path of spiritual growth. And sometimes I have time to show concern for growth in my relationships. Is my relationship with my husband evolving or stagnant? Am I growing closer to my friends? The area where I don't often get to spend much effort is my own "mom" growth. When's the last time I did something just for me? Without feeling guilty about it? I used to think I should devote every moment to my family and not to myself. Then I heard a guest on a talk show say something profound. If we forget about ourselves and give all of our focus to our children, we teach them one of two things. One result is that we'll promote selfishness by giving in to them & they'll think the world revolves around them. As awful as that might be, the alternative behavior sounds worse. They might grow up to be just like mom, giving up their interests & never pursuing their dreams. It's taken years of practice, but I've found that I'm a better mom when I allow myself to grow. That way, when I step back into the role of wife & mom, I'm refreshed. " This was eye opening for me.

Another one from MOPS international:
"Taking "Mom Time" is not selfish...it's a part of your job."


Like the speaker asked us at the begininging of the talk: "What's different about the job as mom compared to an accountant?" One of the things that stood out to me is, we are always "on". 24hrs/7 days a week...from the moment we find out we are pregnant, it's like a switch is turned on. We are always trying to what's best for our children, so that they will be at their best. BUT if we don't allow ourselves to make sure we are taken care of, that our cup is "full", then how can we do that? We can't for very long.

But we can't go the opposite end either and not do the best job we can to nuture and raise our children. It's like being the tightrope walker in a circus. We need balance. The talk was very eye-opening and soul opening to me....it was one of the best talks of the year, if not THE talk of our year.

So mommies tonight if you are feeling that mommy guilt or the stress as a result of that guilt, remember this silent prayer she taught us today: "Guilt/Shame, I release you. You have NO power over me. In the name of God, be gone." If you want more information in regards to the speaker...let me know.

God Bless,
Carlena

Brief scare.

If life hasn't been interesting enough for me, I got thrown a little bit on Tuesday. As you know I'm about 34.5weeks/8.5 months along, so we're getting closer to the end, but not close enough for baby. Well I've been having issues off and on for the last couple of weeks. I thought honestly that, I was just needing to go to the bathroom more, because it's the last trimester, which is what happens. Normal, right? Wrong.

Monday night was the last time I had felt baby move, granted this peanut just like his/her brother Cyril moves a lot less then their older two siblings did, it was unnerving when I woke up Tuesday morning, and realized that Peanut hadn't moved throughout the night. So I did everything I could think of within reason(I still had daycare kids, so it's not like I could lay down)to get this peanut to move. That's when I started wondering if my water was leaking. There were some signs that made me think that, with the lack of movement, and the Braxton Hicks (BH) contractions getting stronger, I was concerned I might be in some trouble or that Peanut was. So I waited till naptime, and called, the OB doctor agreed that I needed to come in.

So a good friend of mine, named Michelle held the "fort" down at my house for the daycare kids, and I went in. They did an Ultrasound (u/s), but it wasn't your normal u/s...at least it wasn't to me. Peanut had 8 things to do, in a half hour of time. If Peanut didn't, then I had to do some more tests, one of which was a fetal stress test. Thankfully Peanut did all 8 things in 15 minutes. That was a HUGE relief to me. Some of those 8 things are: Practice breathing (the tech looks at the stomach moving, to judge if baby is "breathing"), look at heart beat/rate, the baby has to move, and stretch. They also looked at the Aminotic fluid, everything was perfect for 34 weeks and it turns out that my inner organs, and the placenta are being the punching bag for this Peanut, that's why I can't always feel the movements.

The doctor ran more tests, and the final verdict was a UTI/Bladder infection. I didn't know that you could have one without having the traditional symptoms. But since they put me on an antibotic, things have been much better. He said that it was a pretty bad one, which matches with how long I've been dealing with symptoms. Felt kinda of dumb since this was baby #4, but I learned something knew that day.

Next week I'll see doctor again, which was supposed to be the last 2 week visit. Which I can't believe I'm at that point already. The only thing I hate of these last visits are the weekly to bi-weekly physical checks. One can hope he won't do that, right? ;) But it just means we are that much closer to meeting Peanut.

Goes to show you that no 2 pregnancies are a like, and even a smooth sailing one can suddenly give mommy to be some scares.

God Bless,
Carlena

Boys

It's been an interesting week for this momma of 2 boys. People always say that raising boys is a lot easier then girls. I'm coming to the conculsion that it's not any easier but just plain different. Girls and boys are different, no matter what anyone says, no one will convince me otherwise. They are born different, and no matter how much you nuture them the "same", boys are still going to be boys, and girls are still going to be girls.

For Cyril, I swear I'm going to start calling him my nature boy, or I have this nagging fear that one of these days, I'm going to find him outside in his birthday suit. The back yard neighbors have seen more of my 3yr old then I have EVER wanted them to see this week, and last week. On monday, I caught him pulling his pants down in the GRASS, trying to poop. Thankfully stopped him, but his reply was that "I'm not pooping on deck mom." Like everything is ok was his attitude. So had to have the conversation again, about where we need to use the bathroom, darn camping talk. Then on Tuesday, he comes in from outside, I asked if he had to go potty. "Nope, me did all ready" And before I could ask him where or when...you guessed it. He pee'd outside. He tells me though "Me just pee'd not poop mom...that's the rules." I'm at the point where I don't know if I should just die of embrassment, roll my eyes, or just laugh. I've wanted to all 3 this week. So again, we had the conversation about where to go the bathroom for both functions....how long will this last?

For Spencer, it's been still a pretty tough week for him, due to his allergies. Which in turn sends his sensory issues thru the roof. God has been very gracious with me, and giving me a lot more strength and patience to deal with it. I know that Spencer doesn't have control of how he feels sometimes, but it gets SO frustrating for me, I can only imgaine how Spencer feels dealing with it, but I hope last night gave him a fun time, and good memories. For Spencer and his Boy Scout den, they've been working on rockets the last couple of weeks. They were supposed to shoot them off last week, but it was canceled due to the windy conditions that particular night. That was a rough night dealing with Spencer when he found out it was canceled. So thankfully last night they were able to finally shoot them off. Wow!! Can these little rockets go far, when they are launched. I knew they could go high, but we lost track of several of them at different times, trying to see where they landed. I agree with one of the dads, next time if Spencer does this again, we are getting him one with a parachute. Those were much easier to follow then the ones without. We did end up losing one of the rockets last night, and last I heard it hasn't been found. Cyril LOVE chasing the rockets with his big brother and the other boys. I'm not sure what all the boys loved more, watching these rockets launch, or running to be the 1st to reach it when it landed. Spencer did get a little frustrated because he's not as fast of a runner as the other boys, but he still tried.

It was nice to spend an evening with just my boys last night. I need to do more of that I think. Dawn & I have been spending more mother-daughter time too, which has been really nice.

God Bless,
Carlena

Monday, April 19, 2010

What a day!

Today is Monday. It's one of those Mondays that everyone gets eventually and it's the type of day people dread having. One of those days where I just wanted to crawl into bed and not come out. It started off great! The kids got up, got ready to go without to many issues - having done their bedtime routines helped a lot.

Then my daycare day began. The toaster wouldn't work, so I had to scratch what I had planned for breakfast and just do cold cereal...which really isn't that bad for them, just not on my menu plan. I couldn't get the vacuum belt on the vacuum, so it will not work. Miss O & Cyril thought it was awesome to watch me roll up the rug, shake it outside, get on my hands and knees to pick up the floor. :) Not really fun when you have a basketball attached to you. lol.

Baby E(11months old) was very crabby today, I don't blame the little guy because he's cutting all four eye-teeth, and at least 3 of them have blood blisters on them. :( So of course he doesn't want to eat or drink anything. Miss O & Cyril where kind of at odds today, part of me secretly cheered Miss O on because she needs to get more spunk and stand up to the other kids more. Mr. J & Mr. C came right around lunch time. All the kids got to play outside for longer then planned because some transformer blew which caused the power to go out...right at the time that I was starting to cook lunch. UGH! But Xcel was right on top of things, and got to it pretty quickly and we had lunch about an hour later.

Three out of the 5 kiddos take naps these day. Mr. J & Cyril are at that stage where it's better for them to not take naps...but some days like today it probably would have been a good idea. ;)

The two of them caused sooo much mischief during quiet time, I would have sworn there more then 2 of them. They destroyed the sensory table. All the rice is every where in the dining room, the play-doh is every where. And when one of the boys went off to the bathroom, the other followed. Next thing I know on my way to check on them I hear giggles. One of them (probably my Cyril) stuck play-doh down the sink. Thankfully I fixed that. Both boys had lots of time outs this afternoon. Mr. J told me he forgot his listening ears at home. Cyril said his were sleeping.

Then I caught Cyril trying to go to the bathroom outside AGAIN, but on the grass. He couldn't understand why he started to get into trouble...cause he wasn't going on the deck. SO I had to talk to him again about where we go to the bathroom.

Mr. C tried to bite his big brother twice, he bit Baby E and Miss O. I can't remember if he did get Cyril or not. lol.

If that wasn't bad enough of a day, Dawn & Spencer came home from school with MAJOR attitudes!!! Good Grief. lol. Did I mention that my feet are so swollen I can't get my shoes or sandals on? Now it's time for dinner, and I think we've earned me ordering pizza for them, or taking them someplace for dinner. I do not want to cook. Jessie won't be thrilled about it, but this momma-to-be isn't cooking tonight.

As the story book goes: It was a Horrible, No Good, Very bad day.

Tomorrow will be MUCH better...as long as it's not a full moon tonight. :D

God Bless
Carlena

Saturday, April 17, 2010

33 weeks...

This past week has been an interesting week as far as the family goes and my pregnancy. I met with Dr. B this week, things are looking good. Baby is not longer directionally challenged. And Peanut's heartbeat was in the 140's. Movement is slowing down, but when it does move they are big movements.I only gained 1 pound in 2 weeks. He and I talked some more about my weight gain, and why the last huge jump really bothered me. He is still not concerned, because he said it's right within the limit he wants me to gain. I did tweak my daily food diet though. I discovered that even though I've been snacking on a lot of GF snack foods, and some breads. They can still be just as high as Weight Watcher points, so I need to be mindful of that, and plus this last month I really got away from eat the 7-9 servings of fruit and veggies, that I've been eating this pregnancy, which would explain it too. So I'm back to eating more fruits, veggies, and protein like before and it shows with the only 1 pound weight gain. I'm not starving by any means...wasn't before the pregnancy either. :) I'm back to drinking my water too, I've had to increase it because the swelling is here to stay I feel till the end. :(

The kids and I have been enjoying the gorgeous sunny weather the last couple of weeks and going on almost nightly walks w/the kids riding their bikes. Which helped too. Gotta get that vitamin D too. :) I swear Cyril is the typical little kid, he wants to be outside all the time. We've had to really keep an eye on him, because he loves to go out by himself, and ride his bike...or cause mischief.

On Wednesday he did something that I swear NEVER entered my mind of a kids doing. One of my daycare moms was picking up her girls. When all of a sudden Cyril comes in and tells me "Momma, poop". I assumed he had to go, so I told him too. "Nope, all done" I asked if he had flushed and washed his hands. "Not in there momma." By this point I was very confused, so I asked him where did he go? "Outside momma." Where outside I asked him. "Me -poop on deck." His eyes were shining with pride, and he had the biggest grin on his face. I did not believe for a moment he was serious. I figured out all of our children he'd be the one we see peeing outside on a tree. So I went and looked, sure enough, on the deck he did. Between the kids roaring with laughter, and me trying not to laugh, he beamed up at me with pride the whole time. I know it probably wasn't the thing to laugh, but I was speechless.

Now the deck is clean and disinfected. Hopefully the Clorox bleach will not destroy the deck...that would not be a good thing. Cyril and I talked about where it's okay to go to the bathroom and where it's not. But something tells me this won't be the last time we have this conversation....

God Bless,
Carlena